Big lesson in the last four months: baby's don't keep. That's it, that's the post.
Just kidding of course, but it's legit something I have to tell myself every single day. When the days are long and the nights are even longer, I just have to remember that we are in a phase that will pass and I'll somehow miss it. I look at all my friends who have kids that seem to be growing like weeds and I know they miss when their babies were actual babies. The other day Kennedy said that Gus didn't need to grow up anymore and I agree with him. He's such a sweet, innocent little boy who smiles like the sun won't ever set and laughs at just about anything. Selfishly, I don't want him to be exposed to the world and lose his innocents and sweet nature. I know God has a purpose for his life and keeping him for myself would be going against His will. I guess the lesson boils down to learning how to walk blindly in faith, knowing that Gus never was my child in the first place. He's always been a child of God first and foremost. Almost every night I fall asleep praying that God will keep Gus safe, healthy and happy. I know people always say "I guess all we can do is pray," but it's legitimately the best weapon in our arsenal.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
Although this promise is comforting, I know it doesn't guarantee anything will be easy or fair. I'll have to come back to this post and add what the Lord's been teaching me through Jeremiah 29:11 because it was significant, of course. And it's in my notebook at home currently, so stay tuned on this one.
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